I don’t really want to write anything today! But, as long as I’m here anyway, mind as well!

 With Mona on my lap and me staring into this bright screen, I’m feeling down! Why? I have no idea!! My girlfriend said last Sunday that we’d go and do something next Saturday (today). I tried to call her 2 times yesterday and again today! Since I don’t have a phone, I have to be the one to make the calls out! (I use the neighbors phone)  And still me without a job, I’m feeling pretty down.

I did make a really nice Valentines Day design for my Zazzle store. Wanna see it? okay, I’ll see if I can get it out to show you. Wait a moment!  What do you think? Now you have to go to my Zazzle store to see it on the products.   www.zazzle.com/miller_creations. T-shirts are on sale now! “All Shirts are $4.50 off” And there is even a store that sells everything Obama! The link is on my site! There are so many wonderfully talented artists at Zazzle! I am so proud to be a part of them! I’m making so many friends from all over the world through Zazzle! I think they are a part of my saving grace during and after these down times! 

 I think I know why my friend is not answering her phone, when I call. Last Sunday she and her partner graciously took me home from church. I had asked, if it wasn’t an imposition, if we could stop at Safeway, I needed just milk and bananas. Her partner said that there is a Safeway right on way to my place. My friend said that they were on their way to see her partners mother. I did say that if it was going to be a problem that I could go some other time. Since then shes been cold towards me. I don’t see anything that I did that could have caused her to be cold towards me.  I guess I am sensitive to others feelings! I like to think that I am ‘tougher’ than that. I don’t like it when my friends don’t like something I did or didn’t do. WOW! I am so down!! And it does bother me! Yuck!! That’s why sometimes I’d rather be alone than to deal with other peoples ‘garbage’, moods, stuff! With my cats, I have unconditional love and acceptance no matter what I do…except not feeding them and cleaning their potty. 

I don’t think I’ll go to church tomorrow! Last week, I was happier than I am today! But, there is a magazine I want to get! Maybe sometime during the week, I’ll go! I am beginning to hate taking the bus everywhere I go. And to get to the church, I have to take 2 bus’s. And all that waiting! Yuck! It’s just not worth it…most of the time!   I gave her a book I knew she’d like, for a belated Christmas gift! Yes, she did like it…a lot! Having been snubbed by my best friend of 15 years (J), recently,  I am pretty gun shy with getting close to anybody..female or male!  But, at the same time, I hunger for that female bonding! I don’t have an older sister, nor a mother anymore! I know she’s in my heart and I can talk to her anytime I want, but it’s just not the same with a real life, in person! 

So, please excuse me for not having any quotes or cute pictures for you today! I’ll talk to you again later! 

OH…Before I sign off…I’d like to say that I have a whole bunch of Hope in Obama. But, being skeptical about politicians, I will be sitting by and SEE what he does for us! Not putting him on any pedestal -yet-, like so many others have! You bet I’ll be watching the inauguration next Tuesday! 

And one other thing…I believe there were angels helping that pilot bring that plane down in NYC, yesterday!

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